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It's summer, but it's not too freaking hot. 

" I've got solar panels for my room, and whenever it is sunny, I place it outside on my veranda. I think God is watching me make the effort and therefore, postponed summer as a reward." 

"No way." One boy giggles. The kind of reaction I was looking for. 

"Well, that might be so." Says another man. Looking at me with warm eyes. He believes in my absurdity, lucky me.

 Men, Men, Men, I see men all over the place. On TV, on magazines, in books, and they say that the  feminists are the man hater. Really?? I ask myself. I never started to explore the world thinking "Ok how can I hate men???" I was inquisitive, ready to ask questions, understand the unknowable, and then I've got two answers from them. "Hey, do you want to be my mistress?" or "If you do not admire me, get the heck away from me." 

 And I pressed, "Neither". Not A nor, B but a hidden button C.  And alas the chapter closed. So it seems. Rather than me choosing to hate men as a feminist, they weren't interested in my thought and they just valued women according to how they serve them. BOOOORRRRRIIIIINGGGGG was my answer. "I am of no service to you baby."

 If you cannot be interested in who I am, you know nothing about love. And I am, interested in who you are. So I already loved you haven't you noticed?

 Criticizing for the mistakes one makes is a also a form of love. Because one can fix their mistakes. I can too. And I have made tons of them, and all the funny creatures living around me swirled there along with me, wondering "What have we mistaken this time?" We contemplated together and noticed something that we couldn't have. Now I am so glad I've made those mistakes. Better than living your life as if it were scripted. To tell you the truth. Even God doesn't know the fate of us. 

 We have one heck of a collection of mistakes, and we laugh about them all the time. Don't take yourself too seriously, you are allowed to make mistakes. I'm the master of mistakes. You can call me Mrs.Takes if you would like to.  

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